3 months
It’s been three months with you sweet Carter. It doesn’t seem like it’s been three months, it’s seemed like you’ve been with us a lot longer. Like you’ve always been with us. I had a moment today while holding you in my arms and I just felt this connection to you. Like one day when all of this is over and you have a “perfect” body, you’ll come up to me and say thanks mom, thanks for loving me, thanks for choosing me and being there for me no matter what. You’ll be that perfect person one day. But don’t worry I think you’re perfect already. I’ve come to accept your diagnosis and love you for it now. I don’t get sad that you have Down syndrome on my behave anymore. I still have moments where I really hope you’ll be high functioning and live an eventful and full life, but I’ve also gotten really good and taking it day by day. I’m not scared of the future anymore. I know it will be beautiful and exactly what it’s suppose to be. I know that you’ll make our life even better than we thou...