Carter

 Hi Carter Boy!  Carter Boy has been your nickname for a while now. 6 whole months with you. It’s crazy how time heals. It was you all along. You are the perfect person for our family. I’ve already changed and grown so much because of you. I have so much more empathy, I see others, less judgmental, and definitely feel closer to God. You make me want to be a better person. I want to be pure and good like you always will be. You bring so much joy to everyone around you. I always joke that you’re my emotional support baby. Whenever I’m feeling down, I hold you close and everything feels so much better. I know that God sent you to us for so many reasons. Reasons we are seeing now and so many more that we’ll discover.  I’ve had all pretty easy babies, but you have taken the cake. Sheesh! You are SO happy. So content. No crying, just cute little noises when you need something. You love to be held, but you’re also completely fine on your own as well. You sleep through the night,...

 It’s been three months with you sweet Carter. It doesn’t seem like it’s been three months, it’s seemed like you’ve been with us a lot longer. Like you’ve always been with us. I had a moment today while holding you in my arms and I just felt this connection to you. Like one day when all of this is over and you have a “perfect” body, you’ll come up to me and say thanks mom, thanks for loving me, thanks for choosing me and being there for me no matter what. You’ll be that perfect person one day. But don’t worry I think you’re perfect already. I’ve come to accept your diagnosis and love you for it now. I don’t get sad that you have Down syndrome on my behave anymore. I still have moments where I really hope you’ll be high functioning and live an eventful and full life, but I’ve also gotten really good and taking it day by day. I’m not scared of the future anymore. I know it will be beautiful and exactly what it’s suppose to be. I know that you’ll make our life even better than we thou...